Method of Collection

Ok this one will be a little TMI blog but I couldn’t help but share. As it gave a us a good laugh yesterday. And also cause I am anxiously awaiting a phone call from our doc about the 3rd SA results. Trying not to panick as I pray the horse didn’t injure anything down there.

But anyway. We had his SA yesterday at 1:30pm cause hubby didn’t have to work but I still had my EFT so I had to wait to leave till after noon. We get to the clinic and the caring loving wife I am I had been bugging hubby all morning asking him if he has done enough arm stretches and all. (didn’t want him to pull a muscle ya know LOL)

Once there they call us back we have a lovely lab tech. Very sweet. She goes into a room comes out with a packet and a cup. And walks us back to the bathroom(yes a cold blah bathroom). But hubby’s use to this by now being the fact he’s had to do this twice already. But we get back to the bathroom. She turns around goes “well ummmm*she begins turning red* and says well I don’t have many wives come with the men to do this so I am use to handing them this packet of “useful” stuff” which we find some pretty lame porno in.

The funny part is the poor girl was so flustered handing hubby the packet she almost dropped the cup. LOL. Now will jump ahead don’t figure you guys would care to hear about the “bathroom scene” ROTFL

Got the “sample” and went back to find the Lab tech. She takes the sample and hands us a paper that we were suppose to fill out before the “sample” was taken. We sit down and she says read it and fill out what you can. And as per usual my brain dies it doesn’t like questions even the easy ones. But this form was something new for us. Cause we didn’t have to do this the last 2 times*shrugs*

The first question we filled in was how many days did you abstain for.(which was a little over 2 days). The next was what was the sample put in(obviously a sterile cup). But the question that my brain couldn’t wrap around. For 1. I couldn’t figure they would want to know this. 2. My brain had stalled.

The question was *Method of Collection*. I was like seriously?? What are they talking about? Hubby goes no way they don’t want that “Masterbation”? So I turn to the lab tech gal. And was like “what do you want here?” The Method of Collection. Her face turned like 6 shades of red. She begins to him ha around and stutter. I finally went they want the word Masterbation there don’t they. She nodded and began laughing which we all began laughing.

My mom and I decided later that I should have been cute about it and put the electric ejectualtor or he starred at me and it went off. I have to admit though this SA we will never forget.

Test results

Misty’s tests

12-14-07 HSG(hysterosalpingography) Normal>uterus is normal, both fallopian tubes are normal in appearance and patent.

2-12-08 Sprem Antibody anti test>Normal not allergic to sperm

2-12-08 Testosterone on CD3> 42 Normal (normal ranges are Low 20 High 80)

10-30-07 Pap test> Normal

10-30-07 Trichomonas>none seen, Yeast>none seen, Pseudohyphea>none seen, Clue cells>none seen, Squam.Epithelial Cells>many, PMNS>few, Bacteria>many (all results NORMAL)

10-30-07 Chlamydia Probe>Negative, GC Probe>Negative (results normal)

10-4-06 Progesterone>9.1 (7dpo a little low)

10-23-07(CD3 blood test) FSH>4.4, LH>1.8, Prolactin>4.8, TSH>1.77, T4 FREE>1.1, Progesterone>0.6, Estradiol>30 (all results Normal)

Clotting disorders checked>all came back normal(to many to list)

Progest checked 7dpo>1-2-08(14.58), 2-1-08(12.3), 3-7-08(12.9)

U/S results(1-14-08)>We’ll start now with my baseline u/s which was done on CD2.
This is what the report said(I have them send me all my results)
Although several follicles are present bilaterally, no follicles having an average diameter of over 8mm are seen on either side.
Right ovary measures 3.0 x 2.4 x 1.7cm.
Lefte Ovary measures 3.8 x 2.0 x 2.0cm
Uterus measures 7.4 x 4.0 x 2.9cm.
Endometrial stripe measures 5mm. Endometria stripe is not trilaminar. Tiny amount of fluid is seen in the cul-de-sac.

All other u/s show that everything is A’ok. I do have a slightly tipped uterus that tips to the right.

Lance’s Tests

First SA>7-13-06, Appearance Normal, Falls into Droplets, PH>8.5(normal range 7.2-8.0), Semen Volume>2.0ML(normal range 2.0-5.0), Sperm Count>116.0MILL/ML(normal range 40.0-160.0), Motility>80% (normal range 50-90%), Morphology>19% abnormal Forms(normal up to 30%)

Second SA>1-3-08, Consistency Liquefacation Normal, Falls into droplets, Appearance Cloudy, PH>8.0 (normal range 7.2-8.0), Semen volume>3.5ML(normal range 2.0-5.0), Sperm Count>111.0MILL/ML(Normal range 40.0-160.0), Motility>90%(normal range 50-90%), Morphology>21% abnormal forms(normal up to 30%)

Third SA>7-7-08, Consistency Liquefacation Normal, Falls into droplets, Appearance Normal, PH>8.0, Semen Volume>3.3, Semen Count>102.0MILL/ML, Motility>90%(normal range 50-90%), Morphology>18% adnormal forms

12-17-07, Cholesterol>152, Triglyceride>48, HDL Cholesterol>40, LDL-Calculated>102, CHD Risk Ratio>3.8, TSH>1.87 (all results NORMAL)

12-21-07, CT scan to check heart (came back normal), Echocardiogram (normal)

Waiting for results of 3rd SA!

My angel baby Robyn(3-12-07)

Well our arms are still empty and our hearts are broken. Little baby Robyn was with us 6wks today she has grown her wings and flown back home to heaven. It is sad to see her go but I know she is in God’s hands and he is holding her tight, warm and keeping her safe for us.
We were so blessed to find that we were able to concieve without any “medical interventions” at ALL!!! After 2years 7months of TTC we were able to concieve our miracle. Though she was only with us briefly it meant the world to us. And to also know that we could concieve just fine with out any medical help. We put our belief in God knowing he would know what is best and when to bring a child into our lives.
We are sad that baby Robyn choose not to stay in our lives. But we still love baby Robyn and will miss her so. She showed us we could concieve just fine and that everything was just fine. And that our hearts will mend again and we will be blessed again with a sticky baby:)
My heart aches knowing my baby grew wings and flew back to heaven but I am blessed that she choose to come into our lives. If tears could build me a stairway I would walk up there and bring her home to our arms. But tears cannot. So I must let go and let my angel fly home to heaven. I will mourn her and mend my heart but I will never forget her.
Our trust is still in God and that he knows what is best and we do believe we will be blessed again(with a sticky baby). I am truly honored to know baby Robyn decided to come into our lives for just a moment. That she wanted us to be her parents and that she knew we would be strong enough to handle when she had to go back home to heaven.
I just wanted to let everyone know so they could be happy with us and also sad. WE WERE BLESSED!!!!

Letter to my daughter:
To my baby Robyn,
I love you so much and will miss you so. My heart grew with such with love when I knew you were in my womb. I loved knowing you wanted us to be your parents and to love you so much. We wanted you more then anything but we had to let you go. Your grandparents loved you and will also miss you so. We all know we must let you go home to heaven. But we will never forget you and wish you would have stayed. I want to let you know I did want you more then anything in this world and so did your daddy. And we loved you with all hearts and always will. You’ll be forever in our hearts. You will go to heaven with your (aunt/uncles) that choose not to stay. You will all laugh and play, knowing you were all loved. Which is all anyone ever wants is to be loved. So my daughter know just this I love you forever in my heart.
Love,
Mommy

We only want 1(written 12-2-07)

We only want 1 one child of our own
one that has my eyes and his smile.
We don’t ask much
We won’t be greedy and ask for more
cause most of us just want one child.
We will be happy with that one child

I speak from the child whose parents
cashed in their life savings to get him or her.

I speak from the teen who just took a Birth Control pill
not knowing what damage she could be doing to
her body and fertility. Just so she won’t get an
opps pregnancy while trying to grow up.

I speak from the parents of children who are struggling TTC.
As they had to watch their daughters and sons heartache and pain
‘knowing there was nothing they could do to fix it’
As the sparkle in their child’s eyes dulled as
their child’s arms sat empty at their sides waiting for their turn.

I speak from the siblings that had to watch their brothers and sisters longing for
a baby. Watching them fight tears when they see a baby, or when they grumble
when they see yet another pregnant woman.
When their siblings smile doesn’t reach their eyes, wondering if they’ll ever be happy again. Will their siblings ever be whole again?

I speak from the friend that got a call in the middle of the night from her friend that is struggling to conceive. Cause her friend needed to talk, for someone to hear her cries as her heart breaks again. Her friend called cause she feels so alone and broken.

I speak from the couple who just found out their pregnant after many yrs of Infertillity. After months and months of heartache, let downs, and tears. After cashing in their life savings to have this little miracle.

And I speak first and foremost for the couples sitting in the midst of Infertility. Praying for a miracle. Hoping their arms don’t stay empty that their dreams of becoming parents come true.
That every tear shed, every night they’ve cried themselves to sleep, every moment of waiting, the anger, the disappointment, and the envy. That all of it all the pain will pay off that it all will be so worth it when your/their/our child is in those empty arms whether biological or adopted. For we are better and stronger people, woman and mothers for it.

Written by
Misty Holman
11-26-07
A woman in waiting, A woman waiting to become a mommy.

My HSG(12-13-07)

I was so so tired last night that I didn’t get a chance to blog about how my HSG was. I was very excited and nervous about it. I slept rather well but by the time morning came I was awake early and had an upset stomach(I get whats called a nervous stomach which causes your body to produce to much stomach acid) We got chores done and things ready to go to town.

But I first had to run to my folks house to pick up some Mother’s Wart(a herb to help relax you) I figured it was best to get something so I wouldn’t tense and cause more problems. We left about 910am. We were off. And as we were going down the road I remember things we forgot nothing that we couldn’t handle. I had to stop at a gas station for pads for after the procedure.

We get to the clinic about 15mins early. And didn’t have to wait much. Once we headed back to radiology I went to the bathroom and took my Mother’s wart. We sat in the first waiting room about 5mins to then be moved to the next waiting room for like 5mins and off to the x-ray room. My heart was pounding and my knee’s were shaking. The gal getting everything ready said we’ll need the clothes off from the waist down then put a gown on. So I went in the bathroom to change. And go to the bathroom again(suppose I shouldn’t have drank so much water LOL) Got my stylish gown *very sexy*. And I walked back out in the x-ray room. Got up on the table and waited. Soon the radiologist came in and started getting everything ready. He was a shorter man older but not gray(just a receding hair line) yup I was taking everything in. And the nurse acted as if this was the first time she had ever assisted him before*sigh*.

I watched as he got the stuff all out and ready he had another guy come in to open the bottle with the dye in it. That guy was nice and happy/bubbly. He could have stayed:) The other 2 ppl are kinda blah no personality to them really. (when he went to get that guy to help him I said a little prayer to God asking him to be there with me to hold me in the palm of his hands that I needed him right now and to keep me safe and let everything go ok. And that all would be A’ok. That I could find peace)

The doc then had me lay down and scoot down the table to the little stirrup things. And put my legs up and expose myself. I had to take a few deep breaths cause I started getting a bit nervous but I was going to do this no matter what I want a baby. And I knew God would keep me safe. So once things started I focused on a light on the ceiling and “relaxed” The speculum then was put in place(that part I never care for LOL not even for my female exam) *and at that very moment a thought pops into my head and out the question comes I asked him”how many of these have you done? LOL not the best timing but I had to say something. He wasn’t to impressed with the question but realized I may be scared and said tons and tons of these HSG. And asked if I wanted to continue on”which I said yup”* He then cleans more then goes now we are going to dilated your cervix only once through that did I say Owe(for it only hurt for a brief second) then I was good. Next was inserting the balloon to hold open the cervix to put the catheter in. Only once when he was putting the catheter in did I say owe and it only hurt for just a second and then all was good.

Next he asked me to take my feet out of the stirrups and scoot up the table ROTFLMAO. Let me tell you that is not the easiest thing to do. Between everything inserted down then(and you have to be careful not to dislodge it all(or you get to start all over) and then scoot up a long table. I thought he’d gone loony. I tried sliding myself up but felt it was impossible then my brain kicked in and went duh my hubby is at the top of the bed have him grab your arms and pull you up the bed. Ta da we did it!!! Then they position the x-ray machine above me and once in the right place he begins once the uterus was full of the dye he had me turn to my left side and then to the right. He did my right side twice. (not sure why but I will ask my main doc ) It wasn’t painful or crampy. I actually didn’t notice anything while he did it. I watched the screen as he did it.

Once done with the dye part he removed the catheter and tubes and then the lovely speculum (which he couldn’t get closed so he had to take it out with it open that wasn’t pleasant) I asked him if everything looked good and worked. And it was uterus was great and both tubes were clear and GREAT!! YIPPEEE!!! I had to ask him more then once to make sure I heard him correctly. I was so happy I could have just cried. Another step closer to getting our much wanted baby.

I then climbed off the table and headed to the bathroom to change. I put a pad on to catch the dye that leaks out and any blood that may come. Thankfully I only lightly spotted . And all the dye is out. I may have only cramped lightly once or twice after all was done as we shopped. But nothing bad just a twinge. We did all the shopping and then went to hubby’s appt and home. And then bd last night(gotta get the troops up there and ready*smiles*)

So those going to have to get it done I suggest taking Mother’s Wart tincture about 15-30mins before the procedure. And stay relaxed. I know its scary but its the unknown that is scary and reading all the scary stories of gals that went through it that felt it was awful. But trust me it isn’t bad and you feel great afterwards. Plus if you really want a child this is well worth it. So make sure you really truly want this and just set your mind to it and do it:)

Hugs,
Misty

My first blog here:)

Well after much thought and a bit of time. I got another blog setup. I figured since I don’t want a few IRL gals in this part of my life. That I would choose to blog about my TTC efforts here. A place to get out my thoughts good or bad. Where I can blog about any test or treatments I have.

And I won’t be surprised if I don’t blog about every part of my life. Just cause I love to “talk” LOL.

So welcome to Misty’s Ramblings:)